Amol's Blog

It was weird that, my mind went back many years, when I used to wander the part of city that I live in, after my 2.5 years coding burnout. It was something that I did regularly. It is not that this process was new to me. I had done it before, after my personal life took a different turn.

It all feels good, movielike. I mean, it sure looks so. With all the people, the roads and the vehicles. You can go to any place you want and you can return at any time you want. There may be a hope that you will someone nice. It is only hope, of course, this, you only realize with the age. There is no such thing as nice when the people count nears millions.

Today, it occurred to me that this may not be such a good idea. And, this, may be a result of the age. The places outside, in a city, in a town, may house many unwanted elements, the elements which you may not want, and you may not be able to see. This, “you may not be able to see” part is what needs to be seen, or, rather had come to my attention, fully. The city may not be such a pleasant place after all, beneath the clean roads and colourful vehicles, beneath what may seem as normal, may be something that may come to you only after years, or never. This slow creep got to me fully today, I think.

I think, that sitting in a public place for even a moment than is necessary will invite into your mind the things which you may not want, things which might stay with you forever. This is no joke. The world is full of people wanting to use you and as a person who is new to the outside, you may not be aware of the mechanisms. It may be more than what meets the eye. It may be possible, that, you end up influencing people in public places, by your mere presence. This effect may be irreversible. Unless, of course, you are a person who has patience and resources to hold on. Still, it may be a bad idea.

You will get influenced by someone you don’t want to be influenced by. And, you might go on with it. It is a bad idea if you are alone, or, even if you have people for you. It is a very effective play on the human emotions, the result of which, is that, you might end up with an excess of emotions towards the word, an effect which cannot be undone.

For that matter, I think, it is a bad idea, to even share a house with other people.

I come to the conclusion, that hanging out in public places without a purpose should be avoided totally. Or, even the matter of visiting other people’s houses can be considered and then it is up to one’s personal choice, one might avoid that also.

This process of public influence and reverse influence may be irreversible. Although, there is one way. Like it is shown in some places, you can remove yourself from the public surroundings completely and just sit, alone, letting your body take care of it all, using  the mechanism provided by the body and the nature. There may be words for it in all the cultures, all the languages, like ascetism, yoga, etc. This might  take years, but, might work.